still having issues...

I did not want to work out today.  I've been exhausted all week, added by the fact I was trying really hard not to cry all day because of the school shooting, and I just was not in the mood.  But the 10k is in days, and a girl has got to do what a girl has got to do.

So, went to the gym, started my sprints, got half way through, and there went my back.  Balls.  This is very very ungood.  Normally I would've given up at this point and gone home, but yesterday's insights were still fresh in my head, so I decided to push on.  Not on the treadmill - I didn't want to hurt myself, but I went to the basket ball court and did my circuits.  I got through 2 circuits and had to stop.  I probably should've gone on to finish at least 3 times on the ropes and the tire, but during my second session of abs I almost started throwing up, so I decided it was time to throw in the towel.  I added some extra abs the trainer didn't have me doing originally, but the consistent back pain has me kind of freaked out, so I figured I needed as much ab work as I could handle.  Apparently adding 50 diamond crunches, 24 wall bridges, 12 leg lifts, and 50 standard crunches for each circuit is enough to make me want to puke.  Go figure.

So I get home, hacking up a lung and coughing something fierce, and Carey is on the phone with a family member.  Not a smile or a how do you do, just a look to acknowledge I'm there and that's it.  I hop in the shower, just a bit miffed, and let the steam soothe my battered lungs.  I get out, trying to motivate myself to go make dinner, and Carey sneaks up behind me, scatters a few kisses along my neck, and tells me to get some real clothes on because he's taking me out to dinner!  Apparently you get bf rewards for working out that hard - hooray!  We went to Chili's and I got some pasta, a margarita, and a side of parmesan garlic sweet potato fries (omg - so good!).  I only ate a fraction of my food, but I'm back to the wanting to throw up stage.  *Sigh*  Oh well, at least I got my reward - which totally undid all the ab work I did.  Luckily, the gym will still be there tomorrow.