So last night I tried to start the last phase of the Tabata run (run 20 seconds, rest 10 on an incline of 3 at a min speed of 8) and I only made it halfway through. Halfway is only 2 minutes mind you! I couldn't even go for 4 minutes. I thought my legs and my lungs were just going to give up. It didn't help that I did not want to work out last night at all. Not even a smidge. So, since I couldn't sprint, I tried a nice slow run, and went for a quarter of a mile before I got bored. Like I said, my heart just wasn't in it.
I got home and just really wanted to cry (see Katie - I'm right there with you!). I've been wanting to cry for 2 weeks now and I'm kind of sick of it. I just feel like I'm not as far as I should be and I'm very aggravated with myself. I know I'll be proud just for finishing this 10k - no matter how much I have to walk and no matter how long it takes me. But I wish I'd been firmer with myself about really preparing for it.
Hopefully this will really hit home. Seems like being in this situation for my 5k in September wasn't enough. Seems like a broken record - not ready for the 5k, not ready for the 10k... If I'm not ready for ToughMudder I'm screwed. I can't just flub my way through that one.
Ladies, wherever has our motivation gone?! It's almost race time and it's no where in sight...
Here's hoping tonight's workout goes much better!
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