So, as I slack off just days before the 10k, I've spent a bit of time looking back over my past endeavors. I've realized that I'm constantly "starting over". I'm always doing things right -again. I've never gone through with anything to the point where it's a good starting off point for the next phase. I'm always coming up to the end of the contest, or the 5k, or the 10k or what not, realized I haven't gotten myself to where I should be, so I stop trying. I give up before I can officially "fail". When I don't finish it, it's because I "chose" to stop, not because I couldn't do it. It's malarky, but I think that's what I'm telling myself.
Hence, the supreme laziness of the last several days. I'm so aggravated with myself. I'm not ready for the 10k, I've gained weight, and I'm in this wretched funk. How do I get myself over this hump???
Just keep telling yourself that you can do it! I am so proud of you for even attempting a 10K. You can't hear it because you live so far away, but I'm cheering you on!
ReplyDeleteI can send you "You rock! You can do it!" texts if you would like :)